As we were moving, it struck me as to how much interests change over time, and how hard it is to let go of the dream/vision that led you down that path in the first place.  For example, about 6 months ago, I finally decided to sell some of my woodworking tools because they had been sitting idle for over 2 years.  And I did sell some….  But I still have a pretty significant workshop.

And sometimes we get into crafting (like Creative Memories) or duck hunting or triathlons.  And while we are not ready to say we will never do any of those again, they don’t seem to fit in to life right now.  And it is very hard to get rid of the “things” because it seems to mean giving up on that dream.

Our horses are like that too.  We owned Cinder for 11 years, even though we knew long before he wasn’t quite the right fit.  For the past 11 months, I have been working with Calli and talking about my plans for eventing.  But the reality is, I don’t have time to train her and I don’t have time to compete.  Instead, our focus is horse activities the kids can be involved in too.  So instead of eventing, we are going to try to focus more on hunter paces later this year.  We are in a great location to get trail time and Alex really doesn’t like arena showing anyways.  And maybe Calli isn’t the right horse for those goals, so maybe we will find her a new home and find me a quieter mount to focus on the kids’ needs instead of my dreams.  I guess that is part of being a parent and growing up.

But I’m keeping the waders so I can train Mack, the golden retriever, to fetch that duck when we go hunting (some day).